Glutton for Sorrow

by Maria Hardin

lately
i’ve been edging
which is what i call
eating wheat pastries
chocolatine
sugar encrusted
doughy blueberry braids
until the pain
from the gluten
gets so bad
that i can’t dress myself
in the morning
then i stop
for however many months
it takes my body
to reset
so that i can begin again
for so long
i was trying to be good
to be pure
to only ingest
seeds, fruits, & vegetables
an occasional egg
from someone’s
pet chicken
now
i want that blanketing comfort
that only monosaccharides
can offer
tell me that you’ve never
felt a glucose flood
coursing through your veins
making you feel übermenschch
there’s no sadness
in a sugar high
i was born
to consume
this world

Maria Hardin is a Swedish-American artist and bilingual poet based in Stockholm. She is the author of Cute Girls Watch When I Eat Aether (Action Books), Sprawl Coquette (Creative Writing Department) and Tragedienne (Antiphony). 

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