
March
Indulge yourself in a final thought
as the year ends: If you leave her,
the road ahead opens into a midlife reckoning.
No money for the cliched convertible.
The trip to Japan. Holiday shrine
visits with the locals gawking at
the hulking, brooding, balding foreigner
gumming a squid on a stick.
Finding yourself is a luxury good.
Sex on beaches with divorcees.
Old and sweet and slow.
Mutual cumming on cue.
Hair coiled around your fingers.
Coconut hotel shampoo. Salt licked
off a near stranger’s skin, crotch full of
sacred sand as the tide comes in.
No. Leave your flipflops in the closet,
stow your sunblock beneath the sink.
Your health isn’t what it used to be.
Your wealth, pathetic and dwindling,
unfortunately is. Nothing ever changes.
Except the things you wish would stay the same.
She changed. Or maybe the way you saw her did.
It’s a new year. Resolve to do something. Do,
not think. But after the first thought claws
itself into conception, the second forms.
The third. A nativity scene of tortured neurons.
Days die. The calendar deforms.
January, with its resolutions, collapses.
Hopes crash on February’s shores and
before you know it, here again and
again, forever and again: March.
The thought of it. The reality.
Reading Rumi
Reading Rumi has got me depressed.
Or rather, I’m depressed and a friend
prescribed Rumi. Poetry is cheaper
than SSRIs or a gym membership,
easier than deciding to leave
your lover to their addiction.
But all the joyful whirling,
the light, the cups overflowing,
the appeals to a love
with a capital L — no, Rumi, sorry.
I had a Beloved but it turns out
I never really knew her and
this, whatever This is,
is nowhere near enough.
Kent Kosack is a writer with recent work in minor literature[s], the Heavy Feather Review, Some Words, and 3:AM Magazine. His novella, Adar's Freedom, is out now with Subtle Body Press. You can read more of his work at kentkosack.net / bluesky: @kentkosack.bsky.social







